One of the most interesting things about being a blogger is that on most days, you’ll find yourself being used as someone else’s verbal punching bag. When I worked 9-5 in an office, I was left to my own accord, and if I was to take the heat for something that I messed up, it was usually a very professional meeting that involved a write-up, or a discussion on where I went wrong. It’s different as an influencer. Every single photo that I post and every single Story that I share includes feedback, which I love to see and is very welcomed! I enjoy both positive and negative feedback, so long as it is constructive. But, that is sadly not always the case.
I wanted to take this time at the end of my pregnancy to reflect on the good, the bad and the ugly side of being a “content creator” or “influencer” or whatever you want to call it, during a pregnancy. Throughout the time from when I announced my pregnancy at 17 weeks until now, at 38 weeks, I’ve seen every message you can imagine under the sun. I’m not sure if I can speak for everyone when I say that influencers DO READ their DM’s, and that there’s a person on the other side of the screen (me!) but I surely read most of my DM’s on a weekly basis, and see everything that is said to me. In some ways that has made me much more confident and strong, and in other ways it has added a whole layer of self-doubt and self loathing. During this pregnancy I’ve been shamed for exercising, shamed for taking a bath, told I look too small to be in my third trimester, told my belly is huge and I am about to pop, etc. etc. Anything you can imagine people would think about a pregnant person, I’ve probably had said to me. Most of the time the DM’s really do not get to me, but I do think it’s a larger issue that extends far beyond social media. Theres a few main issues that have bugged me during my pregnancy, and especially toward the end:
As a blogger specifically, so much of our career involves being in photos and our personal image, so it has been interesting to say the least, to be in a body that completely changes. I know that the ride will continue on as I enter into my postpartum journey, and figure out my new normal. Thank you so much for sticking with me during these 40 weeks!! Sea and I snapped these photos before Valentines day, and I wanted them to live on my blog because I just love them so much. I felt so not myself while we were shooting them, but in the end I am glad we’ve taken risks, and took so many photos of my bump!