So far we’re only 8 days into the New Year and about 1/2 of my girlfriends told me they’re pregnant. lol! I am seriously so excited because having gone through it, I get to be their little pregnancy guide, and help them out as much as I can (minus the ones who are on baby number two, of course!) This weird thing happens to me when I hear a friend is pregnant – At first I am SO excited for them, and then I am like oh dang, good luck, knowing how hard this year has actually been (even thought it’s been amazing too, don’t get me wrong) and then I am like wow, I didn’t enjoy being pregnant at all, but I somehow instinctually crave it and suddenly have weird baby fever. I think it’s just a woman thing, you see a baby or see a pregnant belly and you sort of want it, even if you don’t really want it at all and know you can’t for the life of you handle it in your life at the moment.
So, all of that being said, yes we do want a baby number two, but it is definitely not in the 2018 cards. 1/4 of me has thought about it within this year, just because of this *desired* age gap between my babies that would be so nice for them – with Hudson being 14 months, there would be a nice 2.5 year gap between them which in my mind is so ideal because they could be close, but not too close in age. But the reality is, I am still figuring out this business of being a blogger, we’re constantly busy with work and juggling Hudson, and it just doesn’t feel right in our lives right now. Maybe that’s selfish, maybe it’s mature of us, maybe it’s just how I feel today and in six months I will be like YASSS GO TIME. Who knows?!?! But since I am sure so many of you mamas with an almost toddler may be in the same boat, and it’s the number one question I get asked by friends, family and all of you I figured I would speak candidly on the topic.
When we had Hudson, everything was so calculated – We had good insurance through my work, I had a 9-5 job + this blog, and we had everything entirely planned out. The negative was that I was exhausted and still working probably 55 hour + weeks, but it was for this nice relaxation period where we both took off and bonded with Hudson. Baby number two will be different – not only will I have Hudson to chase after, but I am now in the freelance wild wild west. It will just happen in a totally different season of life, and the thought of it scares me. So when I wake up and don’t feel totally overwhelmed by having a 14 month old, working freelance, the never-ending list of home projects and all of the travel that’s already lining up for this year … that will be when we might change our minds! 🙂
How did you decide to go for two?